Shucks, y'all gonna miss me?

Thankyou for the encouraging comments below people. I've been thinking about this whole throwing in the towel business with Thigh Pilot. I told a few people it existed, but never let on what it was called, with the aim of writing whatever I liked about sex: real, fantasised, exaggerated, fictionalised, whatever. When Eyes discovered it he was disappointed with how harmless it is - he was dreading what he would find, then relieved and puzzled to find nothing much at all except a lot of daydreaming about him and a couple of recounts of sex with my exes. I was angry at him for having searched for it and read it, but angrier that he told me - one day he announced he was so curious he was going to go hunting for it, and I replied, "If you do manage to find it, you must never tell me."

The thing is, there's nothing here I wouldn't have wanted him to read. I just didn't want to be restricted knowing that someone out there is reading it and knows who I am. To me, it's been a place to play, to put my reveries and memories into words.

It's all different now that Eyes and I have bitterness between us. And why? Well, lots of reasons, the most recent of which is that in spite of not finding much exciting to read in this blog, he pursued, right back into the archives, which of course is human nature, but then having discovered a fantasy about someone else, he decided to get shitty, and give me ye olde silent treatment.

What do I have to say about that? Baby, grow up.

I am disappointed and furious with him. Possibly enough to change the focus of my blog from sex to no-holds-barred emotion - rage, sadness, ranting, whatever. Right now I couldn't give a dog's dick if he reads it and gets offended. And when I'm mad I can be really, really mean.

I'm gonna sleep on this, and if I'm still furious, that's it, he cops it. Immature as that may sound, he has made himself unavailable for actual grown-up talking, so my venting will therefore occur as I damn well please. Here's to Blotching (blog bitching).